Memory or Dream

I just had the worst dream

This morning I woke up around 6:30-7:00 and decided that i should go back to bed because that's way too early. so i went back to bed, and i had this really weird dream. it wasn't a nightmare, but it's been going along with what's been bothering me lately. we were on the bus for i don't know, some game or something. i wasn't sitting with jay, but somehow i got this weird piece of paper that listed everyone on our bus. my name was first and jay's was last (yeah i know completely out of order and random, but it's a dream!) beside my name it had words, but i don't even remember what they said. next to jay's it said something like "at one point we had the video camera fixed on him and andrea and caught them kissing" or something like that and i woke up after that. that's the best i can describe the dream. be surprised i even remember it. after i woke up, i spent like a million years trying to figure out if we ever did kiss on the bus, which we didn't. so i don't know how or why that would be bothering me. :'( i don't know.

posted by Lexi Elizabeth @ 10:07 AM 3 comments

The One and Only True Freak is Me.

my mom and alli were having a conversation one day, and i sort of listened in on it (no i wasn't evesdropping liars! :-P). we were about to move to castle shannon and my mom was trying to tell alli that she should really look after me, because i was really weird and all this other stuff, and it made me cry. a whole lot. but it turned out okay, because while at castle shannon i made a lot of friends and everything was perfect. aaannnnd when we moved to bethel, it seems like alli was the one that should've been looked after :-\.

it still hurts though, to just remember that converstaion because my mom thought, and probably still thinks, that i was/am a forreal freak that would need my sister to watch over me. :(

posted by Lexi Elizabeth @ 11:18 AM 3 comments